Five

Today I had some setbacks. At my therapists I has a tantrum in his office. I stopped taking anti-depressants for four months, and not only have I been more emotionally fragile, but I have also had eczema erupting. It makes it difficult to sleep at night for more than two hours. But he gave me a new prescription. I learned the hard way to follow doctor's orders.

Next I went to a wholesale club to get the prescription filled.It's one of those clubs where you don't need a membership to fill prescriptions. But when the greeter asked me for my card, I lost my temper and started rattling a cart next to her. She probably got scared. Much of my behaviour had been a reaction to being bullied and terrorized in school and work. But being a bully or a terrorist doesn't make me feel better. It makes me feel worse.

Then I set out to a meeting of a professional society for people in my field. The directions were off, so I didn't go. I felt like a loser for missing it. But there's another one next month.

Finally, when I git home, I took a short oatmeal base for my eczema, It felt nice, a little bit better than before I drew the bath. One of my new med will help me sleep better. That's important. I don't want to be groggy while driving or doing job interviews,.